Another sleepless night~

What is happening to me?
I couldn't sleep these two night...
I was trying to figure what is going on inside me.

What was left to me in the past was so hurtful that i can't forget.
To me, I cannot let myself to fall on that trick again and it could be even be me thinking too much. Maybe i'm alone. All alone~

How about letting go~
It's easier to say than doing it.
Letting go feeling is the harder thing to do in this world.

Though this incident, I found that it's hard for me to love again.
The once before, was so hurtful and without any reason, disappear from nowhere.
Like it never happen before.
How can anyone be so cruel?
Left without a word.
Am i stupid? naive? innocent?
And now, I couidn't have myself getting the courage to love again.

Because I am afraid to get hurt again.
Everyone recover from wound and pain. They learnt from experience.
But even you recovered, the scars still remind to remember of the unhappiness~
So i don wan to stand into the world again to face the same thing all over again.
Who can be sure whether it's will be a happy ending or a sad one?
But you will also never know if you don take the first step out.
This is complicated. So i was in a midst of nowhere. Where should i go and what i should do?

Let's the nature takes the lead~
atease~