35 months of together - we are both too stubborn.

It have been 35 months. We've been ups and downs.
Till today, I am still asking myself why do i accept to be your gf.
Do I really like you? I do not know the answer.
But i know that you are the first to ask me and I do not wan to miss the right person for me. So I decided to try.
Through these 35 months, after getting to know u and the times together, I also discover the other side of me which i dislike.
I dislike myself of being bad temper, unreasonable and throw my temper everywhere.
I hate myself.
I know you like me and I do like you now.
But beside all these, we both know that there are just something we will not agree on and it will become our obstacles in the future.
The value of money, our place to live and marriage.
There are alot of things that we need to consider before moving on to the next stage of life.
We are too stubborn,
I still remember what David had said about us.
"You are both too stubborn."
Every time when we quarrel, my mind is telling me what i should do to resolve the situation even though some time is not my fault. But my mouth just cant stop hurting you and too stubborn to say out the most important words.
I always cannot stand you for being so straight forward till I'm embarrassed.
You can criticism the people even in front of them. I totally cannot stand it.
I do not need you to feel the same with me.
But I hope you can at least hug me and sayang me.
Not keep asking questions and doubt what i am saying. Even if I am lying, all because I want you to care and notice me.
I like you and will always think of you.
Good night.